Im going crazy

an

Im 18 weeks and 2 days and the last time i went to the doctors was jan 13 and my next appointment is feb 17 and im just going crazy cuz i had a miscarriage at 8 weeks before and i feel normal no sick or anything just back pain. Im just wanting to cry and see my baby if its alive . I don’t feel anything and never did. Im at this point to just go to the er and ask whats up . I don’t have a baby doppler.