Feeling down

I had a miscarriage in 2019 then one month later I conceived my beautiful now 11 month old girl. About a week ago I found out I was pregnant again, this wasn't planned so we were shocked but in a weeks time we got our heads around it and I actually started to get excited. My girl would have a little sobbling, 2 under 2 etc.

Well I had a chemical pregnancy and now I just feel ever more sadder than I did with the first pregnancy.. people have said "Well you have your girl" "just cuddle your child" etc. I know i have her and I'm thankful, some people don't get that luxury but I think this time makes me more emotional about it because I know we won't keep trying.

I think the positive that has come from this is that we realised we did want children again. I think its just made me really scared for when or if we do try again..

Sorry - I know there's people in worse off situations, maybe its the hormones but I just feel like my body failed me but I also know it didn't fail me with my girl. Ugh ok pathetic rant over..