Depressed

I hope I’m not alone on this. Because I feel very alone.

I currently bleeding from a chemical pregnancy. Today is day 4. In a matter of days, it went from the happiest time of my life to the absolute most heartbreaking time. The first two days after realizing I’m having a miscarriage we’re just constant crying. Now yesterday and today I have zero motivation for anything. I don’t want to clean the house, I don’t want to work, I don’t want to go on a bike ride, I don’t even want to get dressed in the morning. Tomorrow my husband and I are supposed to go to dinner with my best friend, her husband and a few others for her birthday and I don’t want to go simply because I don’t want to be around people right now. I would rather be alone with my husband. Trying to get through this time. I want time to go faster so we can try again but at the same time I’m afraid we’ll lose the next one too.

Until then, I just can’t seem to function. I never thought my first pregnancy would end like this.

Please tell me I’m not alone.