Im a ftm and I have pp depression.

But I had an easy breezy pregnancy. A birth that went by quickly and fine (her heart rate was dropping with contractions which was scary but she was born so quickly after it didn’t matter). She’s pretty good at sleeping.

I should be so happy but I just feel like a bad mum.

The pregnancy and birth were so easy that they didn’t feel real. I didn’t connect to my baby right away. I didn’t honestly love her for weeks.

And she’s pretty happy for the most part and I get plenty of help. But I feel so sad and anxious and exhausted.

Other mothers have it harder. I shouldn’t feel this way at all. I don’t deserve the help I’m getting. I’m just a useless and terrible mum.