I feel like I’m all alone.

I feel like I have no one to reach out to about my TTC feelings. My fiancé doesn’t understand because he doesn’t have ovaries however he tries to help the best way he can. I feel like I get going really good and then I get knocked right back down as soon as I see another pregnancy announcement. On top of that, my best friend is pregnant with her third baby. Her second one just turned a year old. To me it feels like they are rubbing it in my face. I understand no one can put their lives on hold to please others, but it just hurts. My fiancé and I have been trying for over a year and a half now and I’ve done been checked for everything. My fiancé was going to get checked but with COVID and everything he hasn’t had the availability to. However I wish I could just overcome my sadness and be happy for everyone, but I just feel so selfish and that makes me sad because I am always so considerate of others and tend to put them first. I just want a family so bad, but I feel like it will never happen for us.