19 & grieving

I’ve been grieving the loss of my 2 angels and I’d like to find someone to talk to who can maybe relate to this and is around my age (19).

I lost my first baby at 16 after an accidental pregnancy and I lost my 2nd last year at 18 after a planned pregnancy. I’ve really struggled with healing and trying to move on but I genuinely just can’t move on and I need someone i can talk to that understands how I feel, I hardly ever feel okay and when I do, I’m always thinking of my baby’s, I broke up with their dad and I have a new boyfriend who I adore but it’s so hard trying to grieve on my own now.