So I had always assumed I started puberty late, I didn't have periods until I was 14, my mom told me it would take a while to regulate and I might miss a few to start. I've never been regular, at most I have 2 cycles back to back and then I won't have any for like 6 months. There were times she even asked me why I didn't have her buy me more pads, she thought I was wearing one a day, when I told her I hadn't had a period in 9 months she was a little shocked but she never took me to be seen. Which looking back is crazy, because she never had problems being regular.

3 years ago we were at an obgyn for clomid treatments, this month would be the month we conceived sarah. I was told I may regulate after pregnancy. Every time I mention it to a doctor it was like they shrugged me off.

This past July we moved as corey is in the army and it was time, so I go to a new obgyn because the docs on post are booked full. She FINALLY takes me serious when I took in a list, thanks to this app, of the 10 periods I had in the last 4 years. She didn't mind me missing the ones after sarah arrived since I breastfed, but it was a shockingly low number.

I had another visit with her yesterday to discuss labwork and she finally told me my labs show I have pcos, even though my testosterone isn't too high and I don't have cysts some of my other hormones are off. She told me I just don't ovulate, and she's letting me start clomid again so we might be able to expand our family.

I keep telling my husband I don't know what I'll do if it doesn't work this time, because she's only letting us do 6 treatments over 9 months and then she would refer us to a specialist. The insurance the army provides won't cover any cost that doesn't let us conceive naturally, even <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">iui</a>. Im hopeful, but still scared, I'd love to see sarah be a big sister, she loves sushing her baby dolls that cry. I also just want to experience pregnancy again. It's so hard for me to conceive that even while I'm happy for others I always feel a slight bit of jealousy. Something my body should be able to do and doesn't. Even talking to my mom today she told me that "I must get it from my dad's side of the family, because my dad could look at her and she got pregnant." So if yall could say a little prayer for us, send some baby dust and hope we conceive soon id be so appreciative. My husband may have a deployment sometime next year so were hoping for a big fat positive soon so hes here for the birth and first few months for some bonding. I'm actually fine if the deployment gets canceled like all his others lol!

Sorry for such a long post, thanks for reading. 💜💜