Anyone else not feeling ready?

Please baby, don't come early! We had an ice storm and power was out for 4 days this week which set me way back physically and mentally.

We also own a small farm for which I am primary caregiver, and had a milk cow calve this week so trying to get that situation squared away so my husband can manage chores while I'm recovering from the birth.

I was planning on taking a break from homeschooling the other 3 kids after baby is here, anyway, but feeling overwhelmed and may just call it a year a month earlier 😕.

Housecleaning? Fuggetaboutit. I pay someone to help me once every week or two, but yeesh so many rooms are disorganized. Nothing makes me feel more inadequate than a messy house, but I just simply can't keep up with the destruction my husband, 3 kids and a dog leave in their wake 🤦‍♀️.

I managed to buy a carseat, bassinet and baby clothes but they are still unwashed/in boxes.

What with errands, making meals, laundry, filing taxes, coordinating every other detail of our lives while my husband works constantly, all on 50% energy, I am soooo overwhelmed 😢

Definitely a different situation than with my other babies, with those I was 100% focused on the pregnancy and upcoming birth, nesting like crazy and sitting around anxiously waiting for labor to start.

Any one else in a similar boat?