Help me.

Back story: 5 years, 3 kids engaged the last year , I’m in school, he works out of town long stretches .

He cheated , told me he’s never loved me and I should’ve known it was coming. He said it was my fault I didn’t love him enough. Up until he cheated he was very loving and would call 3 times a day and text me often. I don’t believe that he never loved me . His actions prove his words to be false .

What do I do? He’s acting like I don’t even exsist , he ignores me.

Is it just too far gone ? Do I want sympathy or do I want advice lol I have no idea. I’m just so hurt and have nobody that understands . Everyone is saying they don’t know what’s going through his head and he will feel bad later and to forgive him .

Do I stay and try? Do I let him go? Do I uproot my kids and run home to my family? Why do I still love him no matter what he does .

Please feel free to say whatever but just say it nicely . I can’t with angry people today my hearts broken.