My miscarriage story 💙

I had a missed miscarriage in Dec. I was supposed to be almost 10 weeks but my baby’s heart had stopped beating almost 2 weeks prior without me knowing. 3 days later I had a D&C. I was devastated to say the least. My dr said she didn’t see anything wrongs do wouldn’t be surprised if I became pregnant a couple of months later. I had my first period on early January after my miscarriage. I was supposed to start my period two days ago 2/21. I had started feeling kinda nauseous and my period hadn’t started so today 2/23 I took a test...negative. It felt like a train ran me over. Sadness took over me again. I can’t help ask “why me??” This is not fair! So many people reached out to me about their own miscarriage stories, same people who are now expecting their rainbow baby. And while I try to be happy for them I can’t help but feel bitter, jealous, angry! Why can’t I be one of them?? Will I ever get the chance of becoming pregnant again??