I freaked out on my boyfriend

Hello everyone, I need advice or something. I have high anxiety that’s only raised higher since the pandemic started. I’ve recently felt like my boyfriend has started pushing me away.

He has gotten a new job and seems busy he also started a music business that has gotten a lot of business as well. But my problem is that no matter how much he says he loves me or says he’s not doing anything he shouldn’t be I don’t believe him. I just feel sad and forgotten about. I freaked out on him today and we made up but it’s been hard on our relationship because I can’t always be there and he always used to be there for me any chance he could. Now I just feel I scared him away more by my reactions. What should I do I apologized, I even have driven to his house to see him. I’ve told him how I feel. I’m just running out of ideas.