Depressed

This is my third and will be my LAST. I’m goin through it. I really wanted a girl being I already have 2 boys.. I already feel so detached from it I find it hard to even acknowledge or care that I’m pregnant sometimes now 😕I feel like a horrible mother that I feel this way. Is this ok?? Will it go away? Why don’t I feel even a tad bit of love towards this beautiful child of mine I’m carrying 😭😭😭. Lord make it make sense. I just wanted a little me so bad. All I’ve done is cry since I’ve found out.