Can you hate that you love someone ?

I really feel like I hate my child father but I know that i really do have feelings for him still but he makes me so angry. Like I can’t change the way I feel about him and it drives me nuts. He’s bringing a lot of stress into my life by lying to me and still having sex with me. It’s like he has one foot in and one foot out the door. I know that he’s still talking to the girl he cheated on me with but he still comes back here bc this is where he lives even though I always tell him to go and leave the keys but he won’t leave the keys he would just go instead of telling me the truth... ugh all I want is for him to tell the truth and he just keeps lying lying lying. I feel so trapped I don’t want to nag everyday asking him to just tell me what he wants.