Struggling at life

I’m not here for sympathy and I’m not here to be shamed. I just want some kind advice. So I’m a first time mom, my son is 6 months old. I was working full time as a nanny for foster children before my son was born. I’m currently a stay at home mom my boyfriend works full time and we’re living with his parents to save money until we can get our own place. I want to find a job to help get us out of here ASAP, I don’t get along with his parents and it’s making it extremely uncomfortable lately and hard for me to live here. Ive grown very unhappy the last 6 months. The children I nannied are back with their parents now and since I have my own child now I’m really not interested in childcare anymore, (which is what I have most experience in) so I’m not really sure and I’m extremely anxious to go back to work since it’s been almost 2 years since being in a real work setting. I’m also really scared to put my son in daycare, and don’t have family that I trust or that is capable of watching him during the day. I also don’t think we can afford daycare and I genuinely don’t even know where to start with all of this, I feel like I’m stuck in a never ending loop that I can’t get out of. It’s really taking a toll on our relationship.