I’m at a loss

July 17, 2020 was the day I went under for a D&C. My first baby stopped growing at 7 weeks. Not only that, I was told that I had a septum wall in my uterus that caused my baby to not have the blood flow it needed. So I went to a fertility doctor to get it removed just to be diagnosed with 3 endometriosis. My doctor was nice enough to do both surgeries at once. It’s been over a year of trying to see two pink or blue lines and apart of me is saying that I’m infertile and there’s no way I’ll end up pregnant with a rainbow baby. Just last night I started my period and all I wanted to do was be with my baby in heaven. Any kind words or tips would be helpful❤️