Getting things off our chests

Last night my boyfriend and I were discussing some personal things, specifically our break up and how I felt about him sleeping with another person during that time. He’s 31 and I’m 24, I still have some immaturities and I kind of admitted that when I found out about it- although I know it’s wrong and wouldn’t do it no matter how much I wanted to- I wanted to get back at him for sleeping with another person. It upset me, I wanted him to feel the hurt I felt. It sucks because literally after having this conversation I felt worse than before. Granted it was 2 or 3 years ago but I’m just upset and annoyed. It’s getting to the point where I feel like I’m missing out on what’s out there. Since we’ve had one baby and we have one on the way. But now after talking about it I just feel icky. Kind of grossed out and just hurt. Idk.

@A thank you so much for that. We’ve talked about marriage counseling and I think we’re going to do it. It’s just hard because it’s expensive. I feel like it’s hard knowing I gave the rest of my life to someone and I haven’t had many experiences of my own..