I just blew up 😢

My boyfriend has been talking to me like a piece of shit lately. Like his tone of voice is so condescending as if I’m stupid in everything I say, or just plain rude! Like typical asshole tone of voice. I’m 37 weeks with our second as well so I’m already stressed out I have high blood pressure and I’m just feeling depressed.

Tonight he was talking about how when I give him head next I need to try this life hack he saw this girl talking about on Snapchat so my gag reflex goes away.

FIRST OF ALL, I KNOW HOW TO SUCK A DICK K? I DONT NEED A LIFE HACK ITS BEEN 4 years and I’ve had no problem this far!!!!

Second - I have told him it makes me uncomfortable when he watches girls stories on Snapchat. They all have the be sexual and I’m just not personally OK with that shit. Judge me I don’t know. But he just sits on Snapchat all day and says he never watched girls but obviously he does. So that fucking hurts my feelings.

So anyway it’s 1 am and my 18 month old is screaming in her crib literally just throwing a tantrum and fighting her sleep, (only for a few mins, she passed right out after she knew I wasnt gonna let her stay up later) so I’m laying in my bed crying....

Anyways, he comes to bed and asks me if I want to watch this certain movie and I said no cause it’s literal chaos and my anxiety is already up the fucking wall and I’d just rather go to bed. And he says “yup could have guessed that one” because he gets annoyed that I dont want a movie blasting at 1 am every fucking night. I threw my remote and left the room. I’m laying in the guest room with the doors locked.

He just came and knocked and said to come back and he’s sorry. But I just can’t feel this way anymore. He treats me like fucking trash!!!!!!!!!!!! Just in his tone of voice!!!! And then tells me I’m a crybaby and sensitive!!!!!

I’m sleeping alone tonight and I’m gonna cry all night long. I don’t know what to do