I need words of wisdom please😩

Hey ladies! I’m 34weeks I had such a traumatic birth experience with my first baby this will be my second! From induction to emergency c section!! Now I can’t get the thought out of my head I’m going to die at birth or something terribly wrong is going to happen! I suffer with taking medications because I go into panic attack mode after and few like I’m dying! I have an option between csection and normal delivery! But I really don’t want to go threw all the birth again to end up having another csection! I ended up with a section due to baby getting stuck and throwing his head back inside me! Which this baby seems to do a lot in the scans also! I feel like I can’t even make a decision because I really don’t want neither the thought of it makes me want to freak out! I’m scared I’ll take a panic attack on the operating table and will need to be put to sleep! But yet I’m scared of doing natural as I’m not good with pain and I know I’ll need pain meds and will freak out again also incase I’m going to die of the meds!! (Sounds stupid I know) but this is fear I’ve had from I last give birth!! I really don’t know what to do ! But I know I need a birth plan for my next appointment next week!