My heart is breaking

So I lost my mom suddenly about 2 years ago. I didn't get to say goodbye or that I loved her one last time.

Now that I'm pregnant, I'm devastated I have no one to do an announcement for. I'm sad my child will never have a grandma (or grandpa). I'm heart broken I will never have the bond a mom and daughter do when she is pregnant.

I have no family. No friends.

My partner is abusive and because I'm disabled I can't work. I can't leave because I have no money.

It just makes me cry when I see people announce their pregnancy to all these people who are so excited. And I have no one... I'll be alone giving birth. No one to call. No visitors. No baby shower....

Nothing...