I just need happiness

I've broke the no contact rule , I'm at a point ware I'm just tired of being treated any kind of way even out of the relationship, it's always about me helping and if I need it well you know how that goes .

He broke my tv a couple weeks ago I want to be happy I want to lever stop talking to this man.. Ik it sounds like ok juss do it .. but I've moved to a whole state with no one but him .. he gets mad and says "Whatever I'm pretty tired of this find someone to be there for you always,it's not me and never will be I guess 🤷🏿delude your self to whatever thoughts you have I don't owe you shit, you don't owe me shit,". And ya know that gifted my feelings because this the same dumb ass who asked/begged me to come get him from work when I told him I wasn't feeling well which my temp risen to 104.2 same asshole who asked me to take him to wirk and make him lunch before he night his truck recently .. so I'm tired , I'm tired of his selfish ass ways and all he can have is this type of mindset . I reallly wanna juss cry because I'm a nice young girl🥺🥺🥺