Threatened to kill me

There's this girl I know My boyfriend sometimes sells weed to. Yesterday he went to go sell some weed And she was like lying about me. So my boyfriend and I got into it. Time went by we were good again so last night he went to my phone ... I get a lot of Spam emails from seeking arrangements so he thought I was on that for one when I'm really not. He's seen the email from Snapchat which is my old account from a year ago That I don't even get on and I even have 0 friends on it , He got so mad at me He got so mad at me he pulled my hair to push my head into the floor picked up his gun cocked it then pointed it at me I was Begging for him not to shoot me I was so fucking scared that I was going to die so I started praying in my head he was screaming at me The gun pointed in my face . He finally took the clip out took the bullet out the chamber Started to throw my clothes at me telling me to get the fuck out of this house , He told me only reason he did not kill me is because we have 2 kids together. He punched my leg and told me to get out because he was scared he was going to hurt me. We stayed up til 5am arguing I finally went into the room with the kids restless for an hour this morning everything seems better but now I'm scared because he can flip so quick fucked up thing is that I'm so deeply in love with this man I don't know what the fuck to do

BTW the babies are 18 months and 8 weeks AND he would never harm them

Sobz90 he doesn't do any drugs....