Scared...

You guys I literally cannot stop crying I’m so emotional... I’m literally so scared about this pregnancy... I’ve already lost 2 and anything I feel in my body literally scares me.. I just want my baby so bad you know?? I’m feeling this pressure on my left side I’ve never felt with my other pregnancies and I mentioned it to my OB and my fertility doc and they don’t seem concerned they said it can be my CL Cyst.. I had very light pink spotting yesterday that already stopped I Google every thing I feel and nothing good comes up.. I know I should not Google things cause it can cause stupid concerns. Different fears come out everytime like all of a sudden I have a fear of ectopic pregnancy but my levels are rising good but women who have had ectopics says their number were doubling and high as well and some had no symptoms of having ectopic until they were internally bleeding. So it’s so hard not to be scared.. I don’t want to loose a tube I don’t want to go thru internal bleeding none of that stuff idk why I’m having so much emotional anxiety.. I want to be so excited for this pregnancy but I just can’t atm.. I have my first scan Thursday at 5w2d

My bloods were good

On Thursday it was 1,575

Today Monday it’s 5,367

Progesterone went up as well from 24 on Thursday to 26 today Monday

I’m also doing lovenox, progesterone and baby asprin.. and I was dealing with a uti.

Am I overreacting?? Idk I post every day so I know y’all are prob annoyed by me haha I’m sorry