baby #2

well, my daughter just turned one year the first week of April. definitely did not expect to be pregnant or was necessarily trying or preventing tho😭 my periods have been pretty off since getting it post partum. i thought it was just late, mild breast tenderness, nausea here and there. nothing too crazy so didn’t think much of it. i am a little scared, part of me goes back and forth like can i really do this? am i ready for this? i’m very overwhelmed. very afraid, feels like it’s my very first pregnancy even tho it’s not 🤦🏻‍♀️ if that makes sense. i still live with my mom, although my daughters father and i are still together we go there wednesday-saturday afternoons. i’m afraid to tell my mom, i’ve already told my boyfriend. im 21, will be 22 in september. i’m not sure how i feel or what i should do. i’m afraid to be judged by everyone besides my boyfriend. it makes me not want to keep the baby and i KNOW that’s not what i really want even though i feel like i can’t do this and i’m not ready i know i would be angry with myself later down the road for making that decision. i guess i’m just looking to get this all out. any kind words, or anything really would be appreciated but please spare me if you have negative or hate to give. i’m feeling enough from myself and i’m sure my family and everyone else quite soon too.