Mental health and being pregnant? My poor boyfriend. 😭

I'm so early in my pregnancy I'm only 6 weeks. The first time I get to see an obstetrician is May 20th. I already suffer from anxiety, adhd, ptsd, and possibly bi polar( my doctor think I was mis diagnosed with BPD) I was in active addiction for a very long time so I wasn't right in the head with that alone, but now Ive been clean for and year my anxiety is through the roof now, and my emotions. I used mediation,eating healthy and excersize to improve my mental health without medications after I got clean. But now I'm so scattered brain with everything in my life so much more, I can't tell if its just the excitement of it all the fact I feel I'm waiting so long to see a doctor about my pregnancy I don't want my mental health to ruin my relationship everything is so intensified. I've already contacted my psychologist, I don't want to be miserable but I don't want medications to cause harm to my baby. My significant other is also suffering I take everything personally and think he's attacking me. I'm not like this I'm a happy person. And to feel this crazy so early I feel like isn't normal, besides sore boobs and 10 positive tests including blood work. I honestly would have no idea I was pregnant. This is my first pregnancy ever I cannot control myself or my emotions I constantly feel like my hearts gonna beat out of my chest I'm always wanting to fight someone. I'm never a mean person! God who knows how much worse this is going to get...