Update

Day 4 of heartbreak.

He hasn't post anything all day. I purposely avoided paying my phone bill so I wouldn't be able to connect him. My phone still sends a message saying I have a text or phone call but won't say who's calling me or what the messages say. My phone has multiple text messages and phone calls. Is it weird that I want it to be him? I literally want him to call and apologize, I want things back to normal. I haven't cried today so I guess that progress, it still hurts. I'll never forget his words "Fvck it I'm done I don't even want to talk to you anymore" then noticing how I'm blocked on social media. I just wish this was a dream, a nightmare. Is it bad to still want him back? Am I dumb for wanting him?