PCOS sucks

I hate having PCOS/insulin resistance and seeing everyone having babies while we're stuck in the "PCOS Bubble". We tried for many years, tried many meds, saw so many doctors, did so many scans and tests, explored other options, and recently gave up. I put my bottle of clomid in the back of the medicine cabinet; I didn't want to throw it out, but didn't know what else to do with it. It took forever to get it and it's not like I can give it to someone else to use. Every time I go in the cabinet for something, I feel like the bottle is mocking me. I feel so incredibly stupid for saying that....