Pregnancy limbo

Anyone else feel like they are in This weird place with pregnancy ? I’m having all the symptoms but don’t have my first appointment until 6/7/21. I will be 9 weeks 1 day at that point! I really want to tell people I’m close to but because of previous miscarriages my husband and I agreed we would wait. I’m not even sure when I will get a scan because I’m not getting one next week. I just wish I had a little more solid info. I’m hoping to get all these answers next week! It would just be nice to know if I can feel a little relief at this point but I can’t. Also I need to order a dress for a wedding I’m in and it would be nice to know whether to order the size I am or the maternity dress that another brides made is getting . I know it seems silly but I’m seriously thinking this right now .