Baby no.3???

I want another baby, I don't feel "done". We have 2 kids, girl 3.5y and boy nearly 2y. Hubby isn't so sure he wants any more, he is happy we have 1 of each however I really want to have another. I don't feel like if I have 3, i have to have 4. Which is fine by me.

I had awful pregnancies with HG each time and I had a complex pregnancy with haemorrhages and then after birth with my 2nd he spent some time in the NICU. This has created some anxiety for me with having another but it doesn't stop the feeling.

I'm starting to want to try for a baby so badly. I'm not on contraception and we don't use protection, only pull out method. I guess what I'm saying is I want to be "trying" if I fall pregnant again, not have a surprise. Does this make sense?? Am I silly? Has anyone been through this and their Hubby chsnhes their mind? He has said, if I fall pregnant he won't be upset lol. I suppose that is reassuring!