Postpartum body distress

Mine is too skinny. My breasts have deflated so much the nipples fold and hide under the extra skin, I have absolutely no hips and my butt doesn’t exist. I’m so jealous of all these mommies who got curvy feminine bodies after birth and I look like a prepubescent boy

Does anyone have any curv building tips? Something to make my body more feminine, a bigger butt and wider hips mostly. I know my boobs are a lost cost and have decided to save up the funds for a boob job which I’ve been doing a lot of research on and will continue to until I have the funds.

I just... I can’t even look down at myself without crying... if I see my body during sex I’ll get turned off and will cry in the middle of sex and I just need to fix this for myself before it really sends me into a spiral of self loathing.

If anyone else is going through this, I’m so sorry