I need help choosing between a VBAC and elective C Section

With my DD my contractions started on a Wednesday and by Saturday I was told my waters were infected. I had an emergency CS and was traumatised as I was low risk the whole way through the pregnancy. I never believed in a million years I could have a c section let alone an emergency one. Within 10 mins I was in the theatre. I had a huge panic attack and there was no choice but to put me under general aesthetic. I suffered with very bad depression after this. I feel like I was robbed of so many experiences including hearing my child cry for the first time and seeing my husbands face as he became a father. Me and my DD were severely unwell after the c section and were both on strong medication and pain killers.

I managed to get to 6 cm before the decision of a c section was made and I can decide if I’d like to opt for a VBAC or C Section this time around. Up until now I always thought I wanted a VBAC but due to practicality and a history of depression perhaps a more controlled environment would be better. I can have childcare ready for my DD and I can be prepared for a c section.

I’ve been told if I choose a VBAC there’s a 70 per cent likelihood I can do so successfully. However, if something happens or I need intervention it’s likely to be an emergency c section again. There’s no way I want an emergency c section!

This is our last child and my worry is if I choose a c section I might regret not trying a vbac.

Please tell me of your experiences around this matter.

Thank you in advance