siblings...

how can i get closer to younger siblings i neglected?

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i might not keep this post up long but

i have been out of contact for three years and we still weren't too close before that (neglect) but we were COMFORTABLE.

they've gone through a lot and i missed the chance to influence my sisters (12 & 15yo) in protective ways. they've had a recent death in the family and i feel wrong only trying now.

i can no longer do anything to protect them but i want to have a relationship. we aren't on bad terms but we're not close or comfortable at all anymore.

i especially want to try now because if later on in the future im in a place where i can support them i want to be able to have the relationship to do so. it hurts but it's all i can do and hope for.

i messed up from neglecting them. i let them live a hard life without a healthy influence. i dont blame myself since i was and am still very young but it doesn't hurt any less. (young as in it was throughout when i was both of their current ages).

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im not asking to influence them (too long to explain but that ship has sailed + teenagers are difficult to influence in general) i just want a comfortable relationship.

what should i do to improve my relationship with them? how do i even reach out? am i meddling too much or asking for too much?