Advice please ... TRIGGER WARNING : ab*rti*n

Hey ladies. I need some advice. I’m feeling very depressed over this.

So I was in a relationship with a guy for 5 years. We recently broke up. A few years ago, I accidentally got pregnant. Because we were young, weren’t financially stable, didn’t live together, and overall just couldn’t handle it, we decided on having an ab*rti*n.

We both felt it was the right decision and I still feel like that. And we never told anyone about it. Only him and I know about it.

We had a rough year last year and wasn’t getting along. We broke up a few months ago. I have been heartbroken but I understand it was probably for the best.

I found out that he started dating another girl who has a baby. Honestly, it really bothers me. Because it made me think about what happened. I know that it was for the best, but knowing that he is with someone that has a kid upsets me. I think because sometimes I wonder “what if” we would have had one. And I did want to have kids with him in the future.

I have been feeling kind of down and depressed over it. I just wish I didn’t have to live with this as part of my life. Also, I’ve begged him not to tell anyone about it because it was my body and my decision and no one else’s business. And I worry he is gonna tell that girl or tell other people. 😞

Any advice ??