I am so fucking shattered

I just found out that my ex had a whole ass girlfriend while we were dating.

I am heart broken. I thought that when I dumped him that i would no longer be hurt by him. I was so fucking wrong. So wrong. This is like... a knife to the back. I feel so fucking disgusting and horrific even though I had NO IDEA about her. I keep having flash backs of sex and sweet moments because not one time did he ever stop and look guilty about anything ever. He literally gave me no clue. Which just tells me, this man literally has zero ability to feel empathy or guilt.

Another thing is, he gave me chlamydia. I broke up with him because he wouldn’t get his damn infected dick taken care of.

So I messaged this girl, who also turns out to be 18, and we are 25.

I know that he’s with her because she posts pictures. I told her everything. In great Detail, and i sent screen shots for proof. I went allllll in. She deserves to know what a horrible person he is, and also deserves to know that she needs to see a doctor ASAP to make sure she doesn’t have an STI that can destroy her insides. I have NO fucking regrets about that either, I’m glad I told her everything with proof. I hope she beats his damn ass with a damn brick.

I am so damn torn up over this that I am drinking right now. How could I have been SO FUCKING STUPID? How was i so blind? How can I be so easily fooled and manipulated?

I am so bewildered that he could be capable of doing this. He is literally evil, and so good at hiding it. SO good. It’s like a kick to the gut. I seriously cannot believe this.

It makes me feel so worthless. How can someone walk around and live with themselves while doing this to people?