Intrauterine growth restriction

I just spent 5 days in the hospital in maternal fetal medicine. When I went in I was having abdominal pain, my BP was high, proteins in my urine, and my liver enzymes were elevated more than double. They thought I had preeclampsia at 24+4. There was talk of the baby coming early, wayyy too early. As they continued to do more tests and ultrasounds they found that the blood flow to my baby from his placenta was restricted.. they thought that could be because of what they thought was preeclampsia. More tests over days of being their showed my protein levels as normal and my liver enzymes going back to normal. And even the blood flow to baby going back to normal and him having no noticeable heart abnormalities. But only weighting 12 oz when he should have been over a lb at this stage. 12 oz mean very little chance of survival if they have to take him early. (1 in 3) and they barely make equipment small enough to revive a baby this size. There was talk of what would we want for him if he came this early, interventions, comfort care? This was all so overwhelming and heartbreaking for me and my family. But his bear rates stayed great the whole time, and he was active and moving he whole time. So the very few positive things I heard over the last 5 days gave me some hope for my little guy. Even though it felt like they were all but telling me he would not be mine in this life. I had another episode at the hospital of the same abdominal pain that brought me in to begin with. It made my liver enzymes go way up again. They tried a whole bunch of medications for acid reflux and nausea medications to try to fix the pain I was having, when nothing worked I was doses with some pain medication that ended the pain and put me to sleep. Spent the following day with a migraine and puking all day until they decided to medicate me again. They decided that my liver enzymes and abdominal pain were unreal are’s to my baby and may have something to do with a dysfunction infection muscle between my gallbladder and small intestines. They only interventions for this are surgical which is something that needs to be avoided while my baby is still inside. There’s no known cause for this. There’s no known cause for my baby’s growth restriction. He needs to be closely monitored to make sure he’s safer in the inside than he is on the outside so that he can stay in as long as possible and hopefully grow big enough to be okay when it’s his time to come out. And there’s a good chance of him having to come early. I appreciate that anyone has finished reading this post, I just really needed to get it all out somewhere.