Questioning my gender

So I’ve been questioning my gender for a long time. I was born female, and as a kid I was known to be a Tom boy. Im 16 now but I really started to question my gender in 6th grade. It was more then just questioning it was crying in my room hating my self and my body. I have never had an issue with my weight i hated my chest and wished I could just be born as a man. But I do like my chest sometimes other I just want to die or be reborn and just be someone else. So that’s what I did in 7th grade I started binding and went by Alex. I started just walking around my house with ace bandages on trying to look as androgynous as possible. But I slowly went to school dress more masc and eventually asked me to call me Alex and use he/him pronouns. Eventually I had they used they/them and it always makes me comfortable. But I started to get bullied really bad so I’m high school I went back to using my birth name. But I still get uncomfortable some days I hear my name and it just makes me nauseous or I’ll feel my chest or look in the mirror some days and I just want to cut it off myself but others I enjoy how feminine and “pretty” I can be and like to do my make up sometimes. So I just I don’t know what to do can I just get some support figuring this out