Just needing some cheering up

My baby turn one week old on Thursday. I was miserable and in pain from my breasts when she was 4 days old and decided to dry up my milk. I have regretted it ever since and have been try to nurse and get my supply back for a few days but have had no luck so far so I’m debating on just stopping completely but I’m so upset about it. All I want to do is what is best for both of us. My first was formula fed before my milk ever came in and I had postpartum depression and couldn’t get myself to nurse. One month later I tried to get my supply back and went further into my depression and had to stop. I continued to have anxiety attacks when I saw other people nursing or when it was mentioned. I know there’s nothing wrong with formula but I just need to hear it from someone else that it’s ok. If you read my whole story thank you for listening to my baby blues talking. 😅