I need out

I’m tired of the emotional abuse, I’m tired of trying so hard to be an amazing wife, just to be rewarded with a husband who treats me like shit. I’m tired of feeling unloved. I’m tired of reflecting on him cheating because he compares me to his mistress. I want out of this marriage so bad and I don’t even know how to take the first step. I’m tired of him acting like he’s changing just to treat me like shit as soon as he feels slightly annoyed or irritated.

I hate myself for staying so long and enduring so much. Sometimes I become so disappointed in myself I’m ready to give up my life. I’m tired.