Feel so depressed

I feel so depressed… I posted yesterday about how my spouse cheated on me. I’m due soon. I’m out of town waiting on my baby’s arrival (no maternity ward back home) I left my 2 year old at home with my mom to be out here.

I’m laying in my hotel bed depressed, I can’t even cry anymore. What my spouse did/doing with that girl keeps going through my head… I can’t seem to stop thinking about it. I’m so broken. I wish I could just go home but I can’t, it’s 6 hrs away. I have my sister out here with me, but I just wish I was alone.