PPD PPA or baby blues

I had my baby boy on July 23rd, I’m a FTM and I’m not sure if what I feel is normal. I have been really struggling and feeling so overwhelmed and have so much anxiety. I feel like I will never get the hang of this and I feel like a failure. I cry all the time. I love my baby but I’m terrified of him. Is this normal? Can anyone give me some advice?