No more tears (vent)

I’ve seriously gotten to the point where I can’t even cry anymore, when AF comes. I’ve been TTC for going on 5 years now and it’s like all tears have dried up and gone. Every month is just a disappointment now that it don’t even faze me anymore I get my hopes up then get let down, it’s like a break up every month, and you have to wipe your tears and put yourself back out on the market for another let down… I seriously Pray for when is it going to be my time.