Hard couple of days

TTC since my 2 losses and just started work up at a Fertility Clinic which make me feel crappy, like a failure. Why doesn’t my body work as it should. I’ve completed my portion of the work up but my boyfriend has to complete his and he is not for it. The 1st appt got canceled and now still complaining about having to go. Idk what to do ? It feels like I’m alone in this.