Breakup blues!

I just got out of a 7 year relationship. And even though I was the one to break up and I know he's such a good guy and he's always helped me grow, I am angry and sad that he didn't fight for me. I know its irrational but I was very dependent on him and now it feels like he left me alone when he said he doesn't want to remain friends. And now I'm sitting here and crying and missing him for the last 2 weeks, even knowing that its best I didn't stay with a person who didn't want me enough to create a bumble profile 2 days after our breakup! Guess its finally hitting me that we broke up ☹️