Feel like I’m falling behind

I’ve been in a relationship for 5 years. We live together. Moved to a new together for jobs. Have dogs. Basically our lives are very intertwined.

I am so ready for marriage and kids. My partner is not. I’m getting to the point of resenting him for not wanting to progress our relationship forward. To me, marriage is so important. Which I have made clear from day one. I’ve also made clear from day one that I want to be a mom more than anything in life.

Every weekend I have to go to a baby shower, wedding, bridal shower. Celebrating everyone else’s magical journeys. I constantly get asked why the couple who has been together the longest, is not even engaged. I never know what to say bc that’s what I want so bad.

I help a bunch of friends plan weddings and they always say wow can’t wait until you use all your wedding ideas for your own 🙄

Countless people have had babies and I swear every week another friend announces their pregnancy and/or engagement.

I’m so happy for them! But I am so sad for myself. Watching everyone else moving forward towards the life I want. It is making me severely depressed and I don’t know how to deal with it.