Birth

Just watched some birth videos on YouTube and scared myself stupid. I had to give birth to my son at 20weeks 8 years ago but I was only 15 at the time and must have blocked it out because watching those videos I know I'm not strong enough for that there going to have to cut him out because I know I won't be able to do that. Sat having a full on panic attack right now and I know it's stupid and I know how he would come but seeing it has just completely terrified me.