long random rant ,

I don’t understand guys tell me why this dude* & I are just casually speaking about our sex life and what we want to try for next time we have Intercourse . & I said once I’m off my period , I’ll take some pictures & send them to him . He goes “ that’s fine baby” “ because you are not a friend to me ” “ I want you to be something more ”

Me confused asf bc I’m thinking we were just gonna have sex with each other & that’s it , nothing more relationship wise asked “ what do you want me to be ? ” just so I know how far to be around him

He wanna hit me with the “don’t ask , let happen whatever will happen ”

Basically telling me to go with the flow.

*we started texting since feb, started serious talking in March first date in March, started dating In early May , broke up in June ( bc everyone including my parents talked badly about us & he said they are never going to change & I agree , just decided to break up and separate for a while ) we never completely cut each other off , we met up like three times in July ( no intercourse just movies & shopping lol , Now it’s AUGUST & I had sex with him Friday the 13th ) & we plan on meeting up tonight . I’m supposed to be off my period today so hopefully I’m off before 6 😂 .

Completely random to this rant

I have a good friend of mine that lives out of state , he wants me to go to his state and be his , we have always had chemistry since my freshman yr of high school, just never became anything bc my slow brain & now I decided to go to his state for a weekend ( going in 3 weeks) to see what happens, he wants to show me around and go on dates . It’ll be a small vacation for me with one of my favorite people , good vibes only .

When the first dude told me that today I felt kinda awkward bc I’m not the type to pursue two guys at once & my friend I will always love & we have a bond that no one can break .. my ex he would rather break up with me cause he can’t handle people talking about us & me getting hurt by it . Little does he know to this day , they still bring him up to me like if it doesn’t hurt me that they don’t want us together. It hurts a lot and I don’t know why .

So to sum it up my ex seems confused on if he wants me or not , still wants the sex & wants to cuddle and sleep with me , doesn’t want me to leave his side at all but doesn’t know if he wants me Lmaoo . Idc doe either way is fine with me. I just want him in my life .

He’s an Aries

My friend randomly texted me to go where he is and to be his & I said I’ll go . Asked him what his plans are for when I’m there he said show me around my new city & go on dates . & when I asked him when and how long I should go for he said right now and forever ( random asf & weird lol but sweet ) also outta all the guys I have kissed he is the only one who gives me butterflies/sparks when we kiss. I think it’s bc of our chemistry. What do y’all think it means ? I don’t get butterflies or sparks with anybody else at all. He’s a Libra

Im a Gemini .

Thanks for reading my Ted talk 💋 , goodnight .

I wish I can write this in my journal but it’s too much to write in person 😂 , it’s faster here .