Just how I’m feeling

I had a miscarriage last month I’m still devastated but I’ve managed to pull myself together somehow.I did ovulate this cycle so we did try but I feel like if I don’t get pregnant this cycle and I get my period I’m gonna completely fall apart as it’s like that pregnancy is completely over and I’m just back to the constant trying every month when I thought we had finally done it and we’re gonna have our baby, because at the moment it sounds silly but it’s like my body wants to be pregnant again I just feel it physically and emotionally.I tried for a year so I’m so daunted by it taking another year to fall pregnant again.I’m currently 8dpo and thinking that I don’t feel at all how I did last month when I was in fact pregnant but at the same time I don’t remember have that many symptoms at I tried to not symptom spot,ttc is so much harder than I ever thought it would be.Sending love and baby dust x