I know it’s a waste of time but do you see anything

I’m so over TTC I’m so over infertility I’m so over symptom spotting im so over faint/indent lines that get my hopes up I’m so over Ovulation strips I’m so over the TWW that crushes my heart every month I’m so over everything I just want a baby but I’m throwing in the towel I’m officially giving up trying at this point when ever God decides to give me a baby it’ll happen I’m done trying it just breaks my heart every month