Depression!!!

I honestly love being a mom, my children are the reason for my being.. But as I sit here,22 weeks pregnant depression will not leave me alone🥺I pray and I pray and I often question who ami praying to I never really questioned there being a god. But lately I think the devils weighing hard on me, I’ve contemplated suicide in this pregnancy. I don’t think nothing I do is ever right, my daughters expresses so much love for me. I’m doing everything I can do for them alone. But it’s getting hard, I don’t know what else to do. I feel like this is my new comfort zone just venting to strangers. I honestly don’t wanna feel this way anymore🥺 Not asking for sympathy!! Prayers would work maybe he’ll hear your prayers for me!! I’m tired😩🥺😔