I'm tired of covid and i I'm tired of being in

Over the past year I've had bad anxiety and a some depression. I love talking to people, and I love being out. I get anxiety from being in so much I feel like I'm going to get sick from someone who gets to go out. My mom, sister, niece and I are waiting for housing. I'm looking for work without a car. I have allergies in August. Which never happens. Can't afford vitamins. And we're all penny pinching. Everyone says just ask. I don't know when the right time to ask. My birthday in a few days I had to choose between my bus pass to the doctor office and food for that day. And a pair of boots. Thankfully my mom helped. I get so frustrated hearing people complain about stupid things like "I can't afford to get this new___ ugh. I'm tired of this one!" (Not a necessity) Like I have phone thats screen is perfectly fine and the touch part of the touch screen sucks! And I do literally everything on(look for work, check email, social media, texting, research) yes I have a laptop but my internet sucks!.

I'm usually upbeat positive but imagine getting a email saying your hired just respond asap and feel out this application. But realizing it's from 2 weeks ago! As your trying to hurry and finish it the phone won't let you upload resume. Or start responding to a serious post and your phone turns off when you unlock it you have to start over! Or setting am alarm for something important your phone doesn't go off! Again we're waiting for housing. My mom works my sister isn't here all the time. I'm the youngest of a huge family I have no one to talk to and I'm still not used to being by myself so much.(I know I'm not a child but still)I have nothing to do. They say "go for a walk." I have no where to walk to and no money. I constantly lose things in a small space. I can't stand bugs and flys come in when someone else opens the door. I saw a spider a few week ago and still can't find it. Like dang this year needs to hurry up with the blessings because they're coming slow! and I've been working on my hair for 4-5 days I lost count and it's a 10 hours process 😭🤦🏾‍♀️.