Scheduled c-section

I had my 35 week appointment today but have also been considering homebirth as of late. Anyway my first-born daughter was born at 8lb via c-section after induction at 39 weeks now this doctor is worried that i have big babies and I'm that I'm tiny. So I'm have another c-section at 39 weeks so far and I'm feeling all sorts of emotions because I really wanted to have a vbac at the hospital or here at home now I'm worried I wouldn't of been able to push out another 8lb baby at home successfully without any complications. So this is for the best just really wanted to try vaginally this time around 😞